Parents

Today I picked you up for school & I asked you how trick-or-treating went yesterday for Halloween.

Your mom didn’t take you – you were so upset.

I felt angry for you but then realized you are experiencing the big lesson we all have to learn.

The imperfections of our parents.

The gap between who we want & need them to be and who they are.

It will be years of this. And I hate that it hurts you but unfortunately it’s a road we all must take in some form or another. I pray you don’t internalize it as I did & have the strength to challenge your mother. To call her out & push her to be the parent you desire & need.

What’s so interesting is you continue to want to spend more time at her house than ours. Children are so forgiving, so trusting. Again and again and again we give our parents the chance to make it right but again and again and again you will be disappointed.

I’m still peeling back the layers on this myself on my own healing journey. I don’t have much insight.

I can’t speak for your mother & father but I encourage you when you have the strength to approach them with incredible kindness & seek answers to your greivances with them.

I have yet to find the courage within myself to have this conversation with my parents. I don’t want to hurt them. There is a part of me that wants to protect them. But also there is so much shame in my relationship with them.