Learning to Surrender

I’m 33 years old (you’re 9, almost 10) and I’m at a point in my life where I CANNOT live as I have been.

I’m completely overwhelmed/unsatisfied by my job, my relationship with your father is being tested, & I’m feeling very uninspired and exhausted on most days. It feels like I am going through the movements and at the mercy of whatever “urgent” matter comes up that day.

The Universe is calling me to change, calling me to surrender but I’m not really sure how and I’m terrified. There is so much fear in me. My mind starts to play out all the things that could go wrong (normal) but lately I’ve been latching onto those thoughts and giving them weight.

I want to change, I’m so tired of fighting myself. So tired of running. So tired of performing. I’m fucking exhausted, I just need to stop.

I need a change of perspective – to raise my vibration. Somehow I got stuck here and I’ve been here for too long.

I won’t give up on myself, no matter how long it takes. I am deeply committed to learning who I really am and what I have to offer. I’m so excited to get to know this person that’s been buried deep inside of me. And I’m BEYOND ready to let go of my childhood identity, habits, & traumas.

I am love. I am God. You are love. You are God.

I love you bby,

Abby