I’ve been transitioning into a new job for a couple months now and it is CHALLENGING.
But I was reminded yesterday of the power of the stories we tell ourselves. How we perceive what is happening & the story we tell ourselves about it.
This past couple weeks has been hard. I haven’t been sleeping well (war in Ukraine, paying off debt, working long hours, etc, etc) so my capacity to handle basically anything is LOW.
As I watched my mind it sounded like “I’m over this shit, I’m too tired, I’m lost, I don’t know what to do, I wish everyone would fuck off, I’m SO stressed, this is so hard, I’m doing a bad job, etc, etc).
Then I had a mtg with my boss – I tried not to project my feelings onto her but as we spoke within minutes the tension was dissolving. Her calmness and “yeah this is hard but so what” attitude helped me to get out of my head.
This is something I’m constantly reminded of especially when things get tough – I get so in my head.
What I should have been saying to myself is what I would tell you when things are tough – “I know this is hard, I know this sucks. What is one good thing you like about today? You can do hard things, I believe in you.”….most importantly “I AM SAFE”.
I’m constantly reminding myself to be kinder to myself.
This is new territority for me. I was subconsciously taught to criticize myself & be very hard on myself.
This is the beginning of self love. It is new territory for me but I am certain in begins with the power of the words I use to talk to myself.
I love you,
Abby
(written March 9th)
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